Wooo hooo!!  I think it's fantastic that you're taking the reins and steering your life in the direction that YOU want it to go.  Good luck and God bless!

Jenn

CONGRATS on your GREATTT news

i'm really happy for you

i'm glad you had a revelation and CLAIMED it. i think thats great!!! i'm glad you put the line

 "I also realized that having a husband who isn't in love with you is not alright, and that it would be better to live alone rather than face a man who could not care less"...i feel it 100%

i really loved this entry!does your hubby know how you feel? and i especially loved how u chose to exercise on your "anniversary"

"There is nothing I cannot do with God on my side"!

Good Luck with the plans for the New Year and branching out on your own again.

GOD BLESS

Happy New Year!!!

aws

Merry after Christmas to you!

It's good that you are keeping positive, but as well as being positive, what else are you doing to put your life back where it should be? I am sorry I don't know all your history, but are you young, are you working, are you taking any courses to have better chances? Life doesn't happen by itself, we need to help ourselves to get where we want to be!

lifestyle changes are better than diets just my 2 cents lol

anywho, thanks and i'm trying it's hard. i've yet to get some good rest but on the 13 hour car drive tomorrow i'm sure i will...i've yet to pack my suit cases

you're daughter is very brave.

my 2nd cousin was a para in afganistan and came home for good a few months ago.

what she is doing is fighting for what she believes in and for the people that can't do it themselves.

an inspiration to us all

xx

you're daughter is very brave.

my 2nd cousin was a para in afganistan and came home for good a few months ago.

what she is doing is fighting for what she believes in and for the people that can't do it themselves.

an inspiration to us all

xx

thanx for the comment

i just mite do that. rather go to a friend house with my bro than to see christmas ruined again

ty ;]

wit much thanx mysterygirl08 xoxo

sorry about your daughter and glad she is doing fine now

thanks for the comment too. will really wants to be in the delivery room i'll most likely let him in but i wonder if he will get on my nerves. will says hes trying to change i don't really see it yet but maybe he'll supurise me if not...well i still have to do what i've got to do and do right by the baby.

seems like most men aren't ready to be fathers until a lil later. i know will's excited i just want him to mature some more. nobody is perfect so i'm willing to work on him he means well he just needs some guidance(hopefully his mom will guide him cause my energy is fading)

I miss my Mom sooooo much, and it's only been 6 months since I've seen her....

I am sitting at work holding back tears.......I am so happy for you! It reminded of me when my mom was alive and she would come and visit me in NY and how I would run into her arms and never want to let go when she arrived!!

Laura

thats so amazing i am so glad she arrived safe

what an amazing greeting :)

this entry made me tear up

i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy your daughter is home safely

how old is she?how long she staying? you must be so proud!

This is definately going to be a beautiful day for you.

Happy Thanksgiving! You commented in my diary about my walking and ask where I walk... Well..I walk to work and back(7 miles round trip), and on week ends I walk to Walmart and back 12 miles(round trip)

 I think a treadmill is a great Idea for you! You can walk and watch TV at the same time! The average walking speed is about 3 miles an hour, so you can watch an hour long show and burn some major calories. Good luck!

MORE POWER TO YA!! TANKSGIVING IS MEANT TO BE ENJOYED WITH ALL THE TRIMMINGS AND SUGARY PIES AND TREATS AND COOKIES AND SUCH! BE THANKFUL THAT YOU HAVE THE MEANS TO HAVE SUCH A WONDERFUL MEAL AND THEN GO BACK ON THE DIET PLAN SO THAT YOU CAN LOSE A BIT MORE WEIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEARS WHEN YOU HAVE TO "ENJOY" THE WONDERFUL MEALS AGAIN! HAHA

THATS WHAT THANKSGIVING IS FOR. BEING THANKFUL FOR FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND YUMMY FOOD TO ENJOY WITH EVERYONE!

GOOD LUCK TO YOU AND GOD BLESS

aws

i don't know about your dog. lol mine has issues too like barking every time a squirel or a child walks in front of my house lol

but my friend makes baby jewerly...maybe thats something you can look into

and thanks for the comment on my entry

I've given my dog a huge dog house, and it has hay inside of it to keep him warm. He loves to sleep outdoors and does so even when it rains. He's a german shepard and his bark sounds like he has base in his throat, which I don't mind, but the neighbors have taken to turning their lights on letting me know that they are being wakened by it.

After raising the window several times and trying to make him be quiet, he has been rather quiet this morning, though I do think the rain had something to do with it.

I love him, but his barking at 2 and 4 AM drives me nuts!

i feel your pain. I am in somewhat of the same situation except I am not married. I know how you feel and I commend you on your faith. Good luck and God Bless.

aws

i hear you on your weight struggles. I used to be 125 in high school, went up 2 almost 200lbs so currently although I am down to 157, I am striving to get back to that 125 mark again. You know what really helps me? I count calories of everything except for veggies and fruit. Knowing that I have the option to binge, really helps plus veggies/fruit are full of fiber with skim to none calories from fat which means you can eat as much as you want without gaining weight. This is my first week doing this and I already lost 5lbs. Maybe? yes? no? ha well i thought I would share that

maybe you can exercise your sister

thanks for the advice on me and will. i'm just trying to take it one day at a time...just doing the best i know how. maybe we'll stay together maybe be wont but only time will tell so for now i'm just trying to get comfty on this long journey ahead of me. i'll really appreciate support on my decision even if that means not commenting on us. i'm just trying to see a silver lining when it comes to us...

I'm glad your losing weight. I hope and pray you do it the healthy way. I had an eating disorder once...not even too long ago but I snapped to reality and never have turned back I might love the way I look but hey nobody's perfect.

Thanks for ALLL the comments on my entry. I know I shouldn't have took will back but heart is leading me in my decision. Maybe once this preggie thing is over it'll be easier to move on but now he's comfort. Theres no s..x in our relationship...i'm not at that level of trust with him but IF i ever do condoms(and birth control)are a MUST

I can't wait till I get to the point where i'm admiring my baby bump. My breast haven't gotten that much bigger(i had a reduction when i was younger so i hope they stay the same size and they've only gotten tender once). I feel like everything on me is getting bigger butt, face,legs ugh its so frustrating and then i feel bad for being selfish cause i want my body back. BUT i can't wait till hold "future" in my arms and see it was all worth it cause now i'm feeling like ugh whats next. anywho so how old is your child?

well have a good one new fav

Thanks for the Happy Birthday comment!

YOU GO AND DANCE YOUR HEART OUT!

~Yasu

Kudo for you!!!

Your conclusion, is really your acceptance, and verifying the fact that your feelings are/were real is was prettyones statement.

Tip, what your mother truly wanted you to have is what you have.  The material possessions of hers are just that material.  Looking at them in your own space could prove to be even more hurtful. 

You are moving forward with the realization that you want nothing.  Having the ring given to you would and possibly could have made you feel the specialness you needed to feel from your mother while she was living. 

It will take some time to realize the gifts she really did give you....and surprising as it seems...you will be thankful for them.

Peace to you and your journey.

hugs

trot

I've no money either, and no food. It's scary, but a good feeling at the same time.

Dear Pretty

I read your comments on my page...I am touched.  ty.

My addictions are numerous...and humorous...but nothing I laugh at...and this medium is way of hammering it out....

So many of your writings i can relate to..

I have read a few of your entrys....and want you to know that i too was

not the "prettyone"....never felt the love from my mother as my siblings did.

In my mothers passing i didnt shed a tear, nor a sigh of regret of what "I didnt do"...for you see I was the only child of hers that attended her funeral. . The rest of the kids wanted to " remember her as she was", not the woman who lost her mind, became a resident in a nursing home.  She had nothing to give them, didnt remember them or their children, I was known as the "girl next door".

Bottom Line....those children whom she lavished with love.... wimped out...thats the way I see it.  I have very little contact with them today because of it.  Do I regret it? No.   I became the woman she raised me to be.  Independent of sorts...not without issues that I deal with daily..but stronger than them.

My addictions....I find that if i turn on the tv daily...I find one more "label" for my past actions...

Reading your entrys....I feel i can atleast give you this much. 

Most prevailing that comes to me this am is the addiction to LOVE.

Wanting to be loved. 

I was abused, s..xually...

I didnt turn to food, I turned to everyone...

I married, not because I loved, but to get away...from her..from him...from the one horse town.

Babies came, 3, 17 years passed and I woke up.

I left...shocked trembled throughout the family...

Kids and I now just as then, are very close.

I just want you to know there is life out here...

take the quiet path of resurrection of self.

You have to know..the opinion you feel others have of you...does not have to be the opinion you have of yourself.

The weight you struggle with...that is truly your struggle.

Accept the challenge of becoming simply you.  Not what society deems you to be...or your family.

Learn to say No.  No to things that are negative..or that brings on negative thoughts, attitudes, negative to anything good as you deem good.

I would love to give you a hug...and let you know that

"you too are a child of the universe....with all its sham,drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.  Be cheerful. Strive to be happy."  the Desiderata is my mantra for my spirit..

and...well those pictures of you thin....put them in a box and consider it the past...FACE forward, Live today as if there were no yesterday.  I think you will find if you do that...tomorrow will look even more inviting.

trot

[Trot]

I am sorry that you don't have an enjoyable relationship with your husband. One day you will find a man that will love you for your strengths and your weaknesses.  Someone who will hug you when you are sad and jump for joy with you when you achieve your goals! For some of us it takes longer or we take a side road that we think is the real deal. I too have been down that path. Luckily I have met the man of my dreams and we have been blissfully married for just over a year. Please let me know if there is anything that I can do for you! I am only an email of phone call away! 

[Alliesheart]

good luck at the doctors. Gas here is nuts. Our prices aren't bad there just isn't ANY. I waited in line for 2 hours yesterday to get some gas. It is terrible.

Thanks for saying I write well...as for prettyone, she will never change. She thinks only the best belongs to her and never considers others.

Prettyisthin~~~

Hey hunny! I am so sorry about the loss of your mom. I will be praying for you and your family and for God to show you the path he wishes you to follow. I know how tough it can be ending a marriage or even considering it. Please let me know if there is anything you need. I am very sorry that your husband has not been the husband or the person that you needed him to be especially at such hard times.

Allie

I will say a prayer for you. Have you looked into disabled housing? I wish you the best and pray that it is not cancer on your heart...

God bless

[HurtingTruth]

I pray God will bring you through all this with flying colors. It is always better to know and have it treated.

Peace and blessings

Michelle

I had a test like this about 2 1/2 years ago and was supposed to see a cardiologist. I hope and pray everything will work out really well for you. I am glad you went.

Best of wishes

michelle

(((((PRETTYISTHIN)))))

Ya know, I do believe someone can truly break someone's heart. I hope you can find a way to fly, amidst all this. He should be there to support you, not blow you off. You deserve love, support, and so much more.

[HurtingTruth]

I will say a prayer for you. It is already hard enough when you are not well to have to deal with that, and completely another story when you have to jump through hoops to get tests ran, or go to special appointments. Let alone, the possibility of heart surgery must be pretty scary to you. I really hope all turns out and you don't need surgery, but if you do, I hope everything will be ok. God bless

michelle

i totally watched that on MTV last night at like 5 in the morning.... haha

i know what you mean about the guy. it's true though, he had to go through such lengths to actually reach his goal AKA quitting his job/school, moving away from all of his family and friends just so he could focus enough on losing the weight. that's insane. that's so much will-power, and then one big meal can just ruin everything you felt like you've worked for.

i haven't neccesarily been trying to lose weight, i'm not overweight, but i really have to watch what i eat because i gain weight FAST. and i am also really unhealthy even if i am not overweight. i don't excercise or eat that healthy, and overall i just physically feel pretty dull and fatigued because of it. but then when i actually get to excersizing and eating better, i can't seem to stick to it. :( !!! haha. everyones problem i guess.

i hope everything works out for you, and you get your time to heal, because you deserve it. stay strong.

<3 amanda.

Hola my name's mark.  I just read your page one entry.  Thanks for the reminder about cutting down on salt and drinking water.  I'm gonna go home right now and do that. 

Mark.

I wish you luck with the weight issue, I battle with weight myself...

As far as hubby goes, when they are hurt they tend to turn into mommas boys, give him love and affection, but at the same time let him know you need to live your life for yourself and do things to improve yourself....and if he follows good for him, if not, love him just the same.

May the Lord bless you and heal your hubby fast...

with love and huggs

Janica

ps. the reason I want to know every single thing he's doing with my car is because he doesn't have a liscenes. He drives just fine, but I'd rather my car in one piece. I trust him completely, he just drive a bit fast for somebody without a licenes.

I don't stay with my boyfriend because of sex. I stay with him because I love him and care about him more than anything in this world. Yes my boyfriend is less mature than other males his age but than again other males his age do not have disabilities. Yes he need pushing to get a job, he is a bit lazy but we're working on it. If you had read previous entries you'd know that he is disabled, and has trouble finding the motivation to find a job because of it.

U're in my prayers, no parent should ever have to deal with the fear or having any of their children going to war.... I hope the best for u... God bless u!

[thin to be]

Best wishes!

   Loved this entry...so filled with positivity and wisdom. I'm sooooo glad thta you have come to this happy place.  Good for you in treating yourself well and in standing up for you and owning your Nos'.  You sound GREAT!

  Have a blessed day!,

       Jewel

U go girl! U are my new thinspiration!

[thin to be]

Stay strong :)

Peace!!

   Congrats on losing two pounds. YAY you!

   Have a Blessed day!,

        Jewel

As I was reading your entry I laughed out loud at the 'thong' comment. Isn't that just gross? I would also like to know when it became acceptable for your underpants to show in public. Some people say it's a turn on... let me tell you the plumber doesn't turn me on!!!! LOL

Take care sweetie.......

[Angelburninginhell]